All Ayumu dreams of is making it into the same high school as her best friend. But when she gets in and her friend doesn't, their friendship crumbles-sending Ayumu spiraling into depression. She finds relief in cutting herself, but realizes soon that her scars may interfere with her budding high school life. Can she trust her new friend, Manami, who seems too good to be true? Or will Ayumu's apparent lack of compassion and understanding get her tossed aside like she was before? And is there anyone else out there who could possibly love her for who she is? A melancholy coming-of-age story by Keiko Suenobu!Warning: This volume contains depictions of self harm and suicidal ideation/attempts. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, you are not alone, and there is help. In the United States, call the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or go to 988lifeline.org. Otherwise, visit findahelpline.com to find support.
All Ayumu dreams of is making it into the same high school as her best friend. But when she gets in and her friend doesn't, their friendship crumbles-sending Ayumu spiraling into depression. She finds relief in cutting herself, but realizes soon that her scars may interfere with her budding high school life. Can she trust her new friend, Manami, who seems too good to be true? Or will Ayumu's apparent lack of compassion and understanding get her tossed aside like she was before? And is there anyone else out there who could possibly love her for who she is? A melancholy coming-of-age story by Keiko Suenobu!Warning: This volume contains depictions of self harm and suicidal ideation/attempts. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, you are not alone, and there is help. In the United States, call the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or go to 988lifeline.org. Otherwise, visit findahelpline.com to find support.
All Ayumu dreams of is making it into the same high school as her best friend. But when she gets in and her friend doesn't, their friendship crumbles—sending Ayumu spiraling into depression. She finds relief in cutting herself, but soon realizes that her scars may interfere with her budding high school life. Can she trust her new friend, Manami, who seems too good to be true? Or will Ayumu's apparent lack of compassion and understanding get her tossed aside like she was before? And is there anyone else out there who could possibly love her for who she is? A melancholy coming-of-age story by Keiko Suenobu! Warning: This volume contains depictions of self harm and suicidal ideation/attempts. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, you are not alone, and there is help. In the United States, call the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or go to 988lifeline.org. Otherwise, visit findahelpline.com to find support.
The 30th Kodansha Manga Grand Prize Winner! Dive into this hit shojo manga story that set the industry ablaze! If you need the courage to fight back and the strength to take a step toward the future, then this is the manga for you. Ayumu is beginning to reach her limit. She doesn't want to hurt a soul but inadvertently clashes with others to cause more pain. All she does is want to run away...but that is not a wish easily granted to her as her story begins to turn into a downward spiral.
Cornered, ignored, and loathed-- Simply being alive turns into a terrifying hell for Ayumu, as she gets branded as a traitor by her former friend. This marks the start of the appalling bullying that befalls her. But as the darkness begins to overwhelm Ayumu, an unexpected ray of hope appears in front of her...
Even as the bullying grows more intense, Ayumu attempts to stand her ground and not give up. The fear may be overwhelming, but she has to move forward. And as the situation seems grim, Miki offers her emotional support and gives Ayumu a wristband. Equipped with this, Ayumu decides that it’s time to fight back!
Bullied, ostracized, and ridiculed. Being alive in itself becomes a struggle for Ayumu as she falls deeper into a bottomless abyss of despair. Yet, the arrival of a shining beacon allows her to keep going as she realizes that if she wants to change the future for the better, she has to be the one to change. And with this newfound hope, she stands her ground against those who only try to pull her down.
With Miki’s emotional support and the wristband she received from her, Ayumu finds the courage to face whatever tomorrow might throw at her and returns to school. She stands her ground against Manami’s excessive bullying and harassment, but their homeroom teacher happens to witness this situation and begins questioning Ayumu. Both teachers and classmates may only concern themselves with the status quo, but Ayumu will not back down. Her fight has only just begun!
Giving up is easy, but it takes courage to stand your ground and realize there will always be people who care. Thanks to Ayumu's classmate Yuki Sonoda intervening with the severe bullying of Manami and her friends, she realizes that she isn't alone in her struggle and manages to get back on her feet. However... Manami's hatred for Ayumu only grows stronger as she begins to set another tragedy in motion!
At Manami’s request, Akira and his group of delinquents abduct Ayumu and Miki. In a last-ditch effort, they manage to contact Sonoda through Ayumu’s phone and call for help, but will he make it in time before the men lay their tainted hands on them?! Fear and terror close in, but they won’t give up. They believe in the hope that prevails over despair, and so should you!
Ayumu’s made up her mind—She’s not running away anymore. Not from the school and not from herself. She’s going to fight, and she’s going to need all the help she can get. But with the situation heating up at school, can she even hope for any support from the teachers? Or will they take Manami’s side after all?
Just as people can change, so can the whole world— Finally, a ray of hope appears as Ayumu’s homeroom teacher, Toda, brings about a tide of transition. Manami’s absolute rule over the class has started to show cracks, allowing Ayumu and Miki to gain momentum against her vile plans. But how long can this uplift continue?
Has the truth about the bullying come to light? Will Ayumu finally be freed? The frustration and anger felt by the students of her class take a U-turn and now crash into Manami!
After Hirose’s suicide attempt, Manami has come under scrutiny as her friends and fellow students begin to carry doubts. Backed into a corner, she resorts to desperate measures to try and escape this deadlock. Meanwhile, Ayumu uses her summer break to accompany Miki back to her hometown. There, she comes to catch a glimpse of the deep scar hidden within Miki’s heart…
In front of the rest of the students, Hiro declares for everyone to hear that she’s always been the one bullying Ayumu, which is why she attempted to end her life by jumping off the school’s roof. Even though she really is Manami’s newest victim of bullying herself. Of course, Ayumu immediately realizes that this was all set up by Manami, but will her screams even reach anyone at this point?
Amidst all your hardships, someone will always stay by your side. Someone who protects you. Someone you want to protect. But how long will that last, even? Before she can uncover the perpetrator behind the ongoing bullying, associate teacher Hiraoka is forced to leave the school. Shortly after, Ayumu and Miki arrive at the shocking truth that Manami’s father is the one who had set the transfer in motion. For that reason, the two plot their rather unconventional revenge…
Someone like Miki would never cheat—This consensus reached by Ayumu’s class puts the air in the room upside down. Discussions break out everywhere until the students begin to suspect that it was all Manami’s doing, and not even their homeroom teacher Toda manages to get the situation under control. As all the blame shifts over to Manami, Ayumu feels freed from the torment she had suffered, and Miki assures her that this is all because she never stopped fighting. However, this is far from the end, and a new hell breaks loose—
Backed into a corner, Toda accepts her fate and confesses the truth in front of Ayumu, Miki, and her colleagues. She admits to Manami being the true perpetrator behind all the bullying incidents and ultimately decides to leave the school after apologizing to Ayumu. Learning about Toda’s betrayal, Manami once again attacks Ayumu, but the situation has changed. The school has begun to take Ayumu’s side. And now that the students have learned the truth, their rage turns into a torrent that seeks to swallow Manami whole!
The situation escalates as Manami finds herself surrounded and backed into a corner by the ferocious students. Any word of hers is met with contempt and scorn, as all she can do is bear the brunt. Witnessing this, Ayumu begins to feel anxious at the possible repercussions and tries to intervene, but it is Katsumi who indirectly saves Manami by accidentally pressing the fire alarm. However, Ayumu couldn’t let it end there. She feels the strong urge to learn of Manami’s true feelings and gives chase…
Driven by sheer bottomless hatred, Manami charges at Ayumu with a kitchen knife in hand. Despite the mortal danger, Ayumu remains resolute and defends herself from the attack. She decided to believe in a bright future and fight for it, no matter how painful it may be. But then, the tense situation is interrupted when Katsumi arrives, finding the two girls in the middle of their fight. After learning of his true colors and what he has kept a secret from her, Manami realizes that Ayumu had been innocent this whole time, but her anger and frustration remain. Away from Ayumu, she instead sets her eyes on her ex-boyfriend…
After the incident at Katsumi’s home had been resolved, the three were each brought to different hospitals for emergency treatment. Although none of them were in any mortal danger, Manami’s attacks on her ex-boyfriend and Ayumu became known to the public, which led to their families learning about what had been going on behind the scenes. At the same time, the school and its teachers realize that they must take responsibility for neglecting the bullying until it ran out of control. As the world around Ayumu moves toward a brighter future, she is certain she’ll get to spend the rest of her student days with Miki by her side. However, that hope is crushed when Miki confronts Ayumu about a decision she was forced to make…
Things have finally begun to settle down for Ayumu and the others. With Manami’s crimes brought to light, Ayumu firmly believes nothing is stopping her happiness any longer, but Miki’s sudden declaration once again disrupts the peace she has finally obtained. What will Ayumu’s answer be? What will happen to their friendship that prevailed through everything? And what path will be waiting for Manami now that the truth about her actions has come out? This is the dramatic conclusion to their story and their first step toward a brighter future they fought so hard for!